this stone weight in the pit of the gut
this rough filling of an empty space
this smoldering vat of love
this cavern, this cave
this drowning wave
this sucking sponge
this crawling hunger
this pursing thirst
this overwhelming, undermining urge
this surge of hope
this dream of unreserved devotion
this insatiable emotion
this crying need
this dying feeling
this desire for a child . . .